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06 February 2010 @ 10:10 am
schedule sucks.

Pierce is the cutest kid in the universe.
i love it when he's around because i constantly have a smile on my face€.


i'm so tired, like you wouldn't believe.
i've slept a total of 5 hours in almost 2 days.
i honestly don't know how i'm even going.
Pierce is with me right now and Laken is sleeping so i don't really have a choice.
shew!! hopefully she'll wake back up soon and watch him.
and i'll be able to go back to sleep.
i feel like shit, my allergies are being a dick, and my sleeping
he just has this way of making me the happiest person ever.

i don't know why i'm even updating this thing; i hate livejournal, i hate twitter.
i hate facebook and i even hate myspace now a days.
 
 
17 January 2009 @ 01:39 am


FRIENDS ONLY!!
add me.
 
 

 

It's not been a walk in the park for us but...

 

Well man things seem to be getting worse and worse for me and old Larry..and pretty soon were not even going to be friends...anyway..so Hayley adds me on myspace...I add her back..we talk on ICQ..and I found out yesterday that everything he had told me, he had told her the exact same thing..and you will never know how bad it pisses me off that he would do that..I thought he was different from all of the guys that i've ever met..but I found out that he wasn't, that he's just like every other guy...and why I even started talkin to him, I don't know...and he got mad at me for telling her the stuff that he had told me..and he got mad because I sent her mine and his conversation to  on my space..I mean he got mad  at me, when she was the one that wanted it..and the thing is, that he told me like a couple of nights ago that I was like one of his best friends..and that def. was a bunch of bull shit...and I seriously feel like that she's just trying to be my friend, so we can talk and she can tell me stuff about Larry..then i'll get pissed then we want be friends anymore..and i'm so afraid of losing him as a friend, that it ain't even funny..I mean I don't want that to happen, but sooner or later it will happen..and i'm afraid of that!!   

 
 
 
 

 

to start things off beautifully...

Well theres this girl and for some reason someone told her that I hated her..and I SWEAR that I didn't say nothing about hating her....Well see the thing is that the guy she's talkin to right now..we were friends then he told me he liked me, then I left and went to state for 3 or 4 days..then when I get back, he tells me he started liking her....Well actually he didn't tell me, I had to find out on my own..Then I asked him about it, then he told he did..I rly don't have no clue who would have told her that..I've only talked to 3 people about the "whole situation"..and thats Larry,Shakeithra,and ?..the person's name will remain name-less for the time being..but if they didn't tell, then who did??..cause those 3 people are the only 3 people that I talked to about it.

 

But life must go on...

 well now that I have that outta the way and off of my chest..I must do what I do best..and thats post some quotes.

 

So here they are

 

A smart girl kisses, but doesn't love
listens but doesn't believe
& leaves before she is left




Its wierd, the way we always find ourselves running back to the ones we used to love; and for some reason thinking that it might work out differently the second, third, or fourth time around



Its not fair they way you went and just took my heart like that 



In order to love
You must risk pain



I love those fake fights we have when we're together because i know that if i walk away,
you will come after me.




The worst way to misssomeone is
 to be sitting right beside them knowing you can' t have them



REAL LOVE isn't something you can measure
there's no formula. there's no equation. it just happens.
and when it does, you just know 



i hate being alone.
waiting for you to talk to me.
knowing that you're with her.
i'm tired of waiting for you to come home.
you cant just spend all your time with her
and tell me you "love" me at the end of the day.


 
she stares at her phone, waiting for the call that’s never
going to come. she hopes, that maybe today will be
the day he realizes his mistake, but deep down she
knows, today will just be another disappointment.>/font color>



You know those days, where you just want it all to go away? Where you wish you could just go back to the way things used to be? Yeah, todays one of those days. Those days where you just want to breakdown, and never get back up. Those days that are followed by those nights, where you crawl into your bed to cry yourself to sleep, only to hope that the next morning, you won’t wake up to face it all again...
*



 To My Favorite Ho Nanny

 

I just figured that I would say that I'm sry things turned out the way they did..He's a complete ass-hole..this time I actually thought things were going to work out..well boy was I was freakin' wrong..I want you to know that its his lose and when he realizes what he lost, it will be to late..and then he'll just be SOL...but hopefully things will get better for you...you need to let a sister hook you up with *you know who* even though he's so freakin' shy..PLUS he's a total hottie...and I hope you know I freakin  you.

 
 
Current Mood: busyworkin on LJ!!
Current Music: What you know about that:T.I.
 
 
28 March 2006 @ 08:11 pm

We walk around talking to complete strangers 
Laughing for absolutely no reason 
Act like we're 4 year olds 
Have stupid fights that are over in 10 minutes 
Attempt to dance how they do in the music videos 
De-Pants each other in public 
Have wars against bitches that hate us 
Take stupid pictures for hours 
and thats why were best friends

Always Listen too Your Heart.
cause even though its on the left. its always Right. 

When you can't stop smiling after you talk
to him
&& you still get butterflies..
&& that huge smile across your face everytime you see him
that lets you know that he will always mean something to you.x3

Been there and rocked that ; Just crank up the
volume && we can sing like superstars && dance
like we're famous with ripped jeans, popped
collars, && Huge sunglasses
c a u s e- t h a t s- h o w- w e- r o l l

«- - - - - - - - -»«- - - - - - - - - -»
(¯`×. N jUst whEn I tHoUgHt
tHaT I rAn OuT oF rEaSOnZ tO
{sMiLe} .... .:YoU:.CaMe aLoNg. x´¯)
«- - - - - - - - -»«- - - - - - - - - -»


Credit to http://www.xanga.com/OHxTHOSExQUOTES

 
 
Current Music: Picture Perfect:Ashley Parker Angel
 
 
 
28 March 2006 @ 07:24 pm
Well right now i'm talkin to Larry on yahoo..things are gettin back to where they were...well not completly..but its gettin there...this friend thing is going pretty good..I mean better than I thought it would...but it still feels kinda weird..but i'm dealin with it!

& i don't
want him to be perfect. 
i want him to
laugh at me,
trip me, then help me back up,   
pick me up && throw me in the pool
 
make me watch football for hours
and take me to his basement & beat me in air hockey.  
but,  most  of  all  i  just want  him  to   <3
l o v e  m e . 

All SHE WANTS iS SOMEONE THAT Will TREAT
 HER  RiGHT.  __  SOMEONE  THAT  Will  CAll  HER
BEAUTiFUl  &&  WHEN  SHE  NEEDS  iT  THE MOST
SOMEONE  THAT  Will  lOVE  HER ;; x3

She blows big bubbles with her gum. & laughs when they pop all over her pretty face. She dances in her victoria secret's underwear She takes crazy pictures & sends them to people && to her friends...she's a star. Only because she realized that life Is way too short to be crying over the asshole that broke her heartx3

Well, what am I supposed to think? You're like the king of mixed signals. One day you can't stand me. The next day you can't get enough of me.

oh i wasn;t mad because he didn't like me.. i was jealous because he liked her <33

sometimes things happen and we dont kno why,
sometimes things happen that make
us cry
but just remember to hang on alittle longer..
because wut wont kill you will make u
[S*T*R*O*N*G*E*R]


Take chances. Tell the truth.
Date someone totally
wrong
for you.
Say no. Spend all your cash. Fall in love.
Get to know someone
random.
Be random. Say i love you. Sing out loud..
Laugh at
stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize.
Tell someone how much they mean to you.
Tell a
jerk what you think. Laugh till your stomach hurts *
&& your eyes water. Live life. And most of all...have no regrets


&& the truth is...
we walk away to see who will follow
we cry to see who will
wipe away our tears
& we let our hearts get broken to see who
 f i x  t h e m  u p a g a i n < | 3


Skrew Stacey`s Mom;;
me and my gurls;; we 
got it going' on;;

i wanna be that qirl he's scared to loose
the one where he  [ can`t ] walk a w a y
from knowinq shes mad at him, the one
who can`t fall asleep without her voice
beinq the last one he hears & the one he
wouldn`t  know what to do  w i t h o u t 


WHEN 2 PE0PLE R MEANT 4 EACH0THER
no time is to long // no distance is to far
AGE MEANS ABS0LUTELY N0THiNG
and nobody can ever tear them apart


ALL RiSE. STAND UP.
y0U'RE GUiLTy.
FESS UP.
y0U LEFT ME THERE.
SiMPLy WAiTiNG.
i H0PE y0U'RE HAPPy.
My HEART iS BREAKiNG.
iT'S ALL 0VER.
iT'S ALL y0UR FAULT.

&& N0W, y0U'LL FACE iT.
iN THiS L0VE C0URT


Welcom To a World.
WHERE PEOPLE TALK BOUT EACH OTHER
& EVERYONE LIES.EVERYONE TRIES 2
BE   SOMETHING  
THEYRE   NOT
NOBODY CAN KEEP A SECRET   4 THEIR
LIFE  && FRIENDSHIPS THAT  LASTED
YEARS ARE BROKEN. BELIEVE IT  OR
NOT THIS  WORLD  ACTUALLY EXISTS;
its called juniour high.

Credit goes to http://www.xanga.com/OHxTHOSExQUOTES 

 
 
Current Mood: dorkyfeelin better
Current Music: Drop:Ashley Parker Angel
 
 
50 THiNGS Y0U SH0UlD KN0W AB0UT GUYS
1. Guys hate sluts.
2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and
makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11. Guys get jealous easily.
12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like
"You know what?!..uh...never
mind.."
would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves.
18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything.
24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying,  "
Please come and listen to me."
37. Guys don't really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your
naked eyes.
44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear p---erfume. Just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47.
Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

tell her she`s --gorgeous-- . .hold her hand. . .give her piggy back rides. . .push her on a swing. . .teach her how to catch & throw a football. . .kiss her. . hug her & hold her in your arms until she falls asleep. just --be with her-- even if you dont have time, be with her. . .call her, text her, think of her - [ show her ] that you [ care ]! pick her flowers & make her a card, telling her [just how much] she means to you. drop by her house just because you miss being with her. watch the sunset together. . .wrap her in your jacket when she gets cold. . .hold her close to you and never let her go. never let the girl of your dreams slip away. . because she needs & loves you [just as much] as you need & love her. its times like this, [when you love someone soo much] , that you realize that maybe even forever, will hardly be long enough 

Here's my story;;
 I'll give it to you old school:
I like him // He likes her.

i remember the days where i would get butterflies everytime you signed online, where my heart would race faster by just seeing your screenname on my buddylist. we would stay up until 4:30 in the morning, talking, laughing...lol after lol, getting to know eachother, question after question, we could talk for endless hours about nothing important until we began to fall asleep on the keyboard, and had to crawl into bed without waking our parents. these days, a 5 minute conversation doesn't come eary...what happened to us? we used to be so strong. i miss those pointless conversations, i would so anything now to go to school tired after a all night online conversation with you

I swear you do this on purpose. You stay online, while I sit & stare at your name. The perfect letters just sit there. Its hard to resist you, to fight temptation. The memories of you & what we didnt really have will last forever, I promise I wont forget. But darling, you`re leaving me behind, left with this empty feeling inside. Leave with the memories of her, how perfect, sweet, & just right. It tears me up inside. I just wanted to be your temptation, your perfect memory of good times. But your getting on a plane, & mine will stay. Keep in mind, I loved you once, & I tell them I dont ;; but your the one that made me this way, of course I still do! No goodbyes, & one more hello. This is it, the last one that I wont really speak. But look closesly & you will see. The last goodbye, this is it. This is getting over you.
 


He looked at me and said,
"Do you ever feel like you're working
for something you're never going to get.
You shoot and miss kind of deal
like, no matter what you can't have it,
but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?"
I looked at him, stared at him for a second
and replied, "Everyday..."

and          i        don't
want him to be perfect. i want him to laugh at me, trip me, then help me back up, pick me up & throw me into the pool, teach me how to play football, and take me to the arcade & beat me in air hockey. but, most of all i just want him to love me.. < 3

The President, First Lady and Dick Cheney were flying on Air Force One. George looked at Laura, chuckled and said, "You know, I could throw a $1,000 bill out of the window right now and make somebody very happy."

Laura shrugged her shoulders and replied, "I could throw ten $100 bills out of the window and make ten people very happy."

Cheney added, "That being the case, I could throw one hundred $10 bills out of the window and make a hundred people very happy."

Hearing their exchange, the pilot rolled his eyes and said to his co-pilot, "Such big-shots back there. Hell, I could throw all of them out of the window and make 56 million people very happy.

thanks to http://www.xanga.com/xQU0TE__WH0REx for the great quotes.

 
 
Current Mood: gloomyfeel like cryin
Current Music: Invisible Life:AshleyParker Angel
 
 
28 March 2006 @ 12:14 am
somewhere between all of our laughs,
long talks and stupid fights--i fell in
love.

THINGS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING:
Falling in love.
Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
Milkshakes.
Bubble baths.
Giggling.
Long convo’s late at night.
The
beach.
Running through sprinklers.
Laughing at an inside joke.
Laughing at yourself.
Laughing so hard your stomach hurts.
Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Just plain laughing.
Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
Friends.
Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
First kisses.
Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
Playing with a new puppy.

Sweet dreams.
Hot chocolate.
Road trips with friends.
Making chocolate chip cookies.
Holding hands with someone you care about.
Watching the sunrise.
Watching a sunset.
Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping, and kids are playing.
Knowing that somebody misses you..

there's only so much heart in
a girl that you can break, before
she walks away for good.

as soon as you get online, whose name do you look for first?
when a slow song comes on the radio, whose face comes to your mind?
when you hear your phone ringing, who do you hope it's calling?
whose name makes your stomach just drop when you hear it?

1. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING.
2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other.
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. Hug her from behind
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her Honestly.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Be super sweet to her.
10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
[She'll go to bed with a smile]
11. Comfort her when she cries.
12.Wipe away her tears
13. Love her with all your heart
14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down but really she loves it).
15.
Be a gentleman
16. DON'T let your friends talk trash about her, it'll get back to her
17. Take her for a long walk at night
18. When it's cold outside hold her close
19. Draw on or rub her back as she is tryin to rest or sleep

 

 

 


saw him the other day for the first time in months.
I mean, I've seen him recently, but today i really saw him.
me looking at him, him looking at me, right in the
eyes & straight to the heart. & i could feel it,
i could feel him, & it was amazing. It's there between us.
I just wish he wasn't too afraid to see it

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstaion p games & then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He'd played with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt waterguns at each other in the house. But mostly ; some who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile ...
It is  funny  how people can change and they dont even realize it
he said "you know what your problem is ..?"
and she repepropd "yes, i do. i fell in love with the
idea that no matter what happened you would
always be there." "when haven't i" he asked ..
and as a tear trickled down her cheek she said `'
ever since the day SHE walked through the door</3

you can`t know everything about someone.
you have to be able to trust them because
that`s what love is.  -- THE OC
 
 
Current Mood: coldfreezing to death!
Current Music: Let Go:Ne-yo
 
 
A best friend is someone who screams to
you in the hallways saying, "I LOVE YOU,"
not caring if anyone thinks they're a lesbian,
only caring that you hear them everytime.

Growing up is never straight forward. There are moments
when everything is fine and other moments when you're
a teenager and you realize that there are certain memories
that you'll never get back and certain people that are
going to change. The hardest part is realizing that
there's nothing you can do except watch them and
realize that everything is going to change

and just for once
i want someone
to be afraid to lose me

SO BASiCALLY THiS BLOWS
MORE THAN A SLUT

As much as I want to see you, I'm scared.
Terrified of what you might say,
 & how much it might hurt
 




 
 
27 March 2006 @ 01:45 am
Well I'm still up and thinkin about everything that has happened this week...Crazy week..I just got done reading my LJ..I read everything that I had wrote..from the time "he" told me he liked me till now...and  everything that I didn't want to happen, well it all happened..I didn't wanna it all to come back and bite me in the ass..but that happened..and I didn't wanna end up gettin hurt, BUT I did end up gettin hurt...and it was by him..and I just wish that all this shit would just pass over, but for some dang reason I can't get it outta my head..and i'm tryin so hard, but it just ain't working...I prob. should be in the bed...but I can't sleep..Oh BTW I left him a message on his myspace..I told him that if all he was going to do was lie to me than I didn't want to ever speak to me again...that all I wanted him to do was just tell me the truth..and that the only time I agreed with being friends with him was when he first told me that he liked me..and the only reason I said that was because I didn't know him..and I said that he told me that him and her was just friends and that he lied about that..cause she's sayin there talking...AND he went up her house Friday!! Oh yeah I told him that I wanted so bad to be his friend and that I didn't wanna lose the great friendship that we once had..I let him now that I trusted him so much and that I told him everything...cause I mean some of the stuff we talked about, I didn't even talk about to no one else..and some of the stuff I told him, I haven't rly told no one..and that he should know that he must be special or something..i mean I hope that it all works out..and that hoped everything worked out for him and her..I wrote some more but I can't remember everything else that I wrote..well I'm out!!
 
 
Current Mood: aggravatedRLY BAD MOOD
Current Music: Sayin Sorry:Hawthorne Heights
 
 
 
* I wanted you, and I thought you wanted me too..Guess I was 
W R O N G-
 
 
Current Mood: depressedI am Depressed!
Current Music: Sexy Love:Ne-yo
 
 
Just figured that I would update or do something..my sister just got home a little while ago..my mom has already left for work and i'm still up..I need to go to bed but I can't..today I tried to eat but I just can't...I've drunk water all day today..I haven't rly ate much..so I got on his my space a couple of minutes ago...and he has a "girlfriend application"...yeah how funny is that..but I guess..whatever...it happens...I'm gonna try and avoid him whenever he tries talking to me..and i'm gonna try to get over it all!

 
 
Current Mood: tiredSleepy!
Current Music: Say Goodbye:Chris Brown
 
 

im not afraid of telling you that i love you ;; im afraid of what you`ll say back
a tear rolls down her cheek ;; emotions too strong for her  to hide any longer.her cover is blown && the pretending is o.v.e.r.

the feelings that i have for you i just can`t explain » i swear you`re [ a l l ] i e.v.e.r need that won`t -e.v.e.r c h a n g e- 

i try to fool myself. i try to <3 pretend that i want someone else but deep down, i know that <3 i have always wished for you and me

There's always gonna be that guy,  that no matter what happens   between you two,no matter  how long you go without talking, you just never stop loving him

i'm the kind of  person that laughs at jokes 3 times -» once, when its told  -» once... when its explained -» and 
once 5 mins later when i finally get it .

& he'll drive you crazy only because he knows he can

they say talk is cheap so i bought every word you said

nobody said it was easy but no one ever said it would be this hard

i love seeing you smile  but it kills me knowing that  SHE's the reason

sometimes the two people that are meant for each other are the last ones to realize it.

 
 
Current Mood: drainedfeel like crap
Current Music: Mirror:Ne-yo
 
 
25 March 2006 @ 02:21 am
Hey!!! Ok..so I told Larry that I didn't wanna be friends with him anymore..that I just couldn't handle the whole situation..well he still wants to be friends..but personally I think its too hard to be friends with someone when you like them..but thats just me..I tried to explain to him that it was to hard to continue a friendship with him while I still liked him..but he just couldn't comprehend that..we kinda ended on a bad note..I wish that it didn't end the way it did..but sometimes things happen that you just can't control and I think that this was one of those things..I rly did like him I mean I still do like him..but he doesn't like me, he likes someone else..and I can't change the way he feels...I'm not feeling to good tonight and my night pretty much sucks!! but i'll live!
 
 
Current Mood: pissed offmad
Current Music: When can I see You again:Babyface
 
 
24 March 2006 @ 11:05 pm

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

 
 
 
24 March 2006 @ 10:19 pm

Well Tuesday I left for State..I went shoppin Wed. and all day Thursday!! I just now got back!! Not in a rly good mood!! Well for one thing I hate it when a guy tells you he likes you but its rly funny how he's feeding you and OTHER girls the same bull shit..I hate guys cause they lie SO much...I hate guys..OMG i'm so freakin' pissed that it ain't even funny..well one guy in particular, I thought I liked but you can't like a guy these days, without them likin 50 million other girls at the same time!! 

*I thought I was the S.p.e.c.i.a.l O.n.e but I guess not-

*And you wonder why you get the 20 questions?-

*Everything I see reminds me of YOU-

 
 
Current Mood: bitchybad mood
Current Music: She Fuckin Hates Me:Puddle Of Mudd
 
 
18 March 2006 @ 10:07 pm
 
 
18 March 2006 @ 09:14 pm

It was really weird. Last night I was thinking..why is it that two people meant to be are always so far apart? I sat for hours wondering why such a thing has to be. But then it came to me..the distance tests your love. If youre apart & its meant to be, you will be together

he gave her two red roses,
each with a note. the first
one saying, "for the
women
i love." & the second,
"for my best friend." 

it's amazing..some people, they just say these small things. one sentence & it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. small words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. it changes everything, & nothing between you two is ever really the same again. even if they don't know it, it still happens.

♥  i love how i can be a total dork
around you, and you will still make
me feel ABSOLUTELY amazing.

♥ You're not  friends because you sit  together at lunch` or talk on  the  phone; or have  matching  flip-flops'  or can recite  each  others  wardrobes. you're  bestfriends because when she smiles, a  grin  forces itself  across your face. no matter how mad you are-- when she cries, you instantly feel her pain && want to cry with her. When you look her in the eyes you know there's  no  one  you could  ever trust  more. regardless of how many  broken hearts you've had. that's what it means to be best friends

 
 
Current Mood: I'm workin' on this LJ thing!
Current Music: Run It:DChris Brown
 
 
Hey! What a day for me...well I get home from school today...I went to bed at like 5ish and I woke up at 10 cause I had to pee like a race-horse..lol...then I went back to bed then I woke up at 11...then I jumped in the shower..then I get on her and someone told me about Larry & some girl...or something about some girl wanted to get his number and she wanted to hang out w/him..but his ex asked him out again...but he said he didn't know what to do..he still likes his ex, I mean I know that he does..he told me he did..and I told him that if she was what made him happy then he should go ahead and date her again..and I told him that as long as he was happy then I was happy for him..

                                          ♥Happy for you, EVEN if it breaks my heart



 
 
Current Mood: confusedso confused
Current Music: Nobody Knows It But Me
 
 

-Bowling Green HERE WE COME-

Love is a wish that hides in your heart and nobody knows about it but you.....love is blinding, an eternity in a single moment, a religion worth dying for.....but it's also time consuming...and a pain in the ass, and a hole in the heart, that sorta thing, not necessarily that order, but....I'd like to think it is that order...really. - Billy Bob Thornton -

But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears. Nothing can make something that happened, un-happen. 

it happens at different times for different people ..
but it happens to everybody.
its the worst part about growing up,
heartbreak, but its a part of life.


sometimes, even when people try to do something good, it still turns out bad. 
i apologize for calling you, i know its kinda late
but alots been on my mind and i fear it couldnt wait
i just wanted to say hello, and make sure your doing all right
i guess i needed to talk to you, to get me through the nite
but the real reason i called might shock the hell out of you
i've actually been doin well, and i found somebody new
someone who makes me smile, and adores everything in me
who finds me his reason for living, and loves me whole heartedly
but before i give my heart to him, i had to hear your voice
i just had to know for certain if i was making the right choice
but now that im talking to you, i dont think that i could
do you think i should love him? are you really gone for good?
because i dont want to fall in love with him & miss my chance with u
and let this all have been for nothing, after all that i've been through
but what if i find happiness wit him &, god forbid, there comes a day
when u want me again but i dont want u, and i turn your love away?
i fear the day that i wont need you, like i always have before
but i also fear I'll never get u back. Im not sure what i fear more
so i need u to tell me honestly, what you want me to do
should i ride on back of this princes horse, or should i wait for u?
because if u tell me that its over & u will make that girl your wife
then I'll let u go once & for all, and get on with my life
but if theres still a part of you that feels anything for me
you have to tell me right now, and tell me truthfully
is she standing there beside u? wondering whos on the phone?
would u rather have this conversation when your all alone?
okay just do something for me then, lay down and close your eyes
i want u to think about me tonite, and see if u get the butterflies..

around your friends you acted like you didnt love me or even care
but then when we were alone you said stuff like "ill always be there"
well that was the biggest lie ive ever heard.
now that its over and everyone knows why you're gunna be sorry
when your boys start saying "damn you're one stupid guy"

 
 
Current Music: Austin:Blake Shelton