I'm pretty tired of holding on to something that is never going to work out in my favor; it's pretty much a lost cost. You've been my crutch for so long and I don't know how to stand on my own two feet anymore. It's sad honestly, mostly because i've never been one to depend on others to help me stand, i've always stood my own ground. Things aren't getting better, seems things are slowly just getting worse. I've most defiantly seen brighter days, but i'm not giving up finding happiness again; happiness that doesn't come from you, i'll find it you just wait and see.
I have such great things happening in my life and i'm too caught up on you to see those beautiful things and appreciate them like I should have been doing for so long. I have amazing parents, I have the best grandpa, I have the best sisters, beautiful niece and little cousins and I have amazing friends. All together my life is nothing short of amazing. I have a good job, food on my table and a roof over my head. What more could I ask for? So what if the love of my life broke my heart, stuff like this happens daily. There is people out there that have problems far more greater than that and i'm complaining because I gave someone my all and I didn't get that back in return. I know i'll be fine, i'm a fucking tough girl. I got this.